Sometimes I feel as though I am standing on the edge of a precipice. If I jump, will I plummet to my death or will I take to the skies and fly away into the night? The thought of the jagged rocks below waiting for my arrival is comforting, for at least there I know my future is certain. To fly would mean accepting uncertainty as a constant companion, and I am unsure as to whether I have the energy to discover what lies in store for me.
Month: January 2015
When Friendships become Toxic
“I used to think the worst thing in life is to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.”
– Robin Williams
I have recently learned that sometimes you have to say goodbye to friendships that have become so toxic that they start to negatively affect you and your core being. Constant criticism, snide comments and heartless manipulation are some aspects of such a relationship, and they are often aimed to make you feel worthless.
I am not worthless. And neither are you.
On Loneliness
“Loneliness is the absence of a needed relationship.” – Dr Bill Webster
Last year I was fortunate enough to spend Christmas with a friend and her family. It was, for the most part, a happy occasion; I was surrounded by delighted children, good company and even better food. In fact, it was probably was one of the best Christmases I’ve had in a long time. And yet, at times, I felt disconnected from those around me, almost as though I was an intruder in this scene of familial bliss. I couldn’t put my finger on exactly why this alienation had suddenly crept up on me, and it’s only now, a couple of weeks later, that I have the answer: loneliness.
Loneliness is one of the most crippling states of being, and yet a subject often swept under the carpet. And contrary to popular belief, you don’t have to be alone to be lonely. You can very much enjoy periods of solitude or be in a room full of people and still feel isolated from the world around you.
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